Song of Songs 3:5

Dear Lord,

I guess, I was way too fast. Maybe, I was able to push him away. Lord, I guess I still do not have the maturity and the needed emotional state a married woman should have. I have been so into getting married but the question is, "Am I really ready?"

Maybe, I was way, way too fast for him. I don't know. Maybe I lost his attention already. But then Lord, You are the only One who knows about the future, what You have in store for us.

Maybe, I was so excited and too carried away by my feelings, my thinking had been distorted. My mind has not been working and functioning in the way that it should.

Lord, You know better than I. I will just trust in You. Maybe I did not act like a true Christian lady towards him. Yet, Lord I will leave him into Your hands. I will let go. I will be still and surrender. I will surrender all my hopes about him. Lord, You know what is in store for us. All I need to do is just wait. wait on You and cultivate myself.

You have better and bigger plans. I know. You see the bigger picture. I will just trust in You and really trust in You.

Please take good care of him as he leaves tomorrow or on the day that he does whenever that day will be. I will just go on with my life and will continue what I needed to do.

I must and will remember than You are always better than I...

Thank You, Father. Amen.