Dear Lord,
Thank You again for this lovely morning. Thank You for lending me back my life Father God. Lord, thank You so much.
Lord, I am still thinking about him. Lord, I decided last night to let go of him. But then I am still thinking about him. Lord, I will just let go. Let go of him, all my dreams about him in it, everything. Lord, I will not pretend that something did not happen for something really happened in me all in the span of a week or so. Yet, I must and will have to let go for nothing happens now. Yet Lord, You see the future ahead. You see what is going to happen in the future. I will just let go of him, of everything about him. But then Lord, I have noticed that all throughout my time that involved him, I did not think nor remember about William. He was completely out of the picture.
Lord, help me as I go through this sadness right now. This feeling of rejection. This feeling of inadequacy, this feeling that I was not good enough for him to like me. Lord, this is just the enemy's taunting. Lord, help me please. Forgive me also for I was not able to go to the children's ministry yesterday. Forgive me Lord. Lord, I am also praying that this time around that I transferred to Alabang, my decision will become a really wise one. Lord, may I have good Christian friends who would really help me. Lord, I thank You for the company of Ate Rachel and Ate Hazel yesterday. I enjoyed them a lot. Lord, may we become closer and may our lives become a blessing to each one. Lord, I am also thankful that I was able to see Kit yesterday there. Lord, I know there are no accidents in life. Everything happens for a reason. Lord, teach me what I needed to know regarding what's behind our meeting.Sometimes, I just wish that we had not met anymore. That he did not become a part of my life anymore. That I just simply live without knowing about his existence. But You have Your plans, Father. Just like the reason why I met William before, why I met the others before. They helped me become a better person. Lord, may my disappointment as regards him be not put to waste. There is a lesson behind this and yes one of them is Your admonition not to "awaken" love until the time is right. Lord, help me to act more accordingly and appropriately when I am with guys specially a guy that I like. Lord, I may have lost him already but I have learned my lessons so next time around, I will know what to do.
Lord, just take good care of him. Just bless him in everything he does and every endeavor he makes. He is a good man, a good person and lucky is the girl that he would like, love and eventually marry. Lord, I honestly wish I were her but it is impossible now. Lord, I am hurting right now, really I am but by Your mercy and grace, I will be okay. I will be fine. I will have a bright tomorrow. Lord, ours was a short time but during those times, I really lost my balance but I felt happy too. Yet, Lord I must let go now. I will let go of my dreams, of everything, I will surrender. Father, thank You so much and may my hour of sadness become a blessing in disguise for me. Father, thanks a lot. I surrender to You my broken heart. Amen.
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