Prayer of Repentance

Dear Lord,

Forgive me. Forgive me for not living my life according to Your will. Forgive me for living my life on my own and not consulting You but just letting You know.

Father, I am getting married in a month. And You know the sinful things that we did together. Help us to repent Father and turn from our wicked ways. Lord, help us to make things right. Help us not to look at marriage as something to cure our "spiritual disease" rather it should be a union that will bless each one of us.

Thank You Lord. Thank You for giving him to me. Thank You for blessing me with a very kind and loving man.

Who is not perfect, a flawed human being who also needs Your grace.

We both need Your grace Lord as we head to our new life together. Thank You very much. Thank You for loving us.

You want us to lead holy lives. Our human passions burn us so it is better for us to marry. May our marriage become a blessing and good testimony to others.

Thank You Father. Amen.

Processing Myself and Just Loving

The Law says, “You must not do any sex sin. You must not kill another person. You must not steal. You must not tell a lie about another person. You must not want something someone else has.” The Law also says that these and many other Laws are brought together in one Law, “You must love your neighbor as yourself.” ¹⁰ Anyone who loves his neighbor will do no wrong to him. You keep the Law with love. Romans 13:9-10 NLV

Dear Lord,

I am disappointed with someone right now. You know who though she might not have done something not-so-good directly to me, still I am disappointed. Yet I must also remember that I am a sinner and I just need You in my life as I go through life everyday.

Lord, help me to not look at people especially those who profess to belong in Your church. Help me not to feel self-righteous and help me to just have love and understanding for them in my heart. Lord, help me not to be distracted anymore and just focus on You and Your goodness.

Lord, You also know the things that are coming ahead. I love the person You have given me so please Lord help him. Help him I am begging You. And help me to just love him and be there for him unconditionally.

Lord, we'll be able to make it through. Lord, I know I will come out of these dilemmas shining and more matured. I will be better honed to face life and everything it will surely throw my way be it good or bad. You have plans, You have things in Your mind so all we need to do is trust You. And trust You with all our heart.

Father help me to come to terms with my feelings towards her. I feel cheated and betrayed. Yet Lord, she is also a human being like me. We are fallen by nature and You saved us by Your grace.

Lord, I know that these things happen for a reason. I know that You only want me to be more faithful and loving. But Lord, You know that it is really a struggle for me and surely I could never do it on my own. Kindly help me Father. Help me as I live my life.

Lord, help me to love my neighbor as myself. And help me to love myself also the way You want me to. Thank You Father God. Amen.

Fighting Against My Demons

Dear Lord,

You know what I am going through right now. Thank You for I am slowly coming to terms with the people around me and my emotions.

You know how affected I have become when Leng and I talked about ADD and me showing manifestations of such.

Do I Lord? Or I just don't have the right heart with You?

I am scared it might affect my relationship and my future life with Jeff.

Is it really wise to get married in April?

Or are we just acting in haste because we also feel lust for each other?

Lord, I don't want our relationship to be destroyed because of lust or any other negative emotions. Help us Father God. Help the both of us to become more patient and more loving and understanding with each other.

Thank You for helping me become honest with how I felt. Thank You for the right words to say.

Lord, help us. I don't want my emotions and my heart get the best of me. Thank You Father. Please give me wisdom and a sound heart as I make decisions for my life.

Thank You Father God. I know You have blessed me with such a loving man. Though he can be so stingy sometimes. But we can talk about things and find ways so we can always meet halfway.

Thank You Lord. Amen.

Leave Things in Your Hands

Dear Lord,

I am now leaving things in Your hands. I don't want to stress myself out anymore, to bother about things that do not really matter in anyway.

Looking deeply into my heart, I must have had too much pride and arrogance inside me that I could not easily accept the things that have been happening to me right now. I must have had too much haughtiness in me.

Lord, Thy will be done. I am yielding all my control. I have become such a control freak that I have started to control the people around me and even the turn of events I have  wanted to place them in my hands.

Lord, I don't want to bother anymore. I want to just forgive those people, to love them even if they are so unlovable. Forgive me for those times that I lost my control, I lost my temper and gossiped a lot about others. I think I must learn to keep my mouth shut from now on.

Father, help me to change. Help me to become more matured, to become more objective and yes to be more patient in everything. Help me to really accept that things and people and the movement of life change. Only one thing does not. Your love for us. Thank You.

I am lifting up to You now my concerns, the wedding in December or January, our life together with my soon-to-be husband, my work, the people around me and my future. I am also yielding my bad attitude to You Father. Help me to change everything. My mind as well.

Thank You very much Lord. Thank You for Your messages today. Thank You Father God. Amen.