Fighting Against My Demons

Dear Lord,

You know what I am going through right now. Thank You for I am slowly coming to terms with the people around me and my emotions.

You know how affected I have become when Leng and I talked about ADD and me showing manifestations of such.

Do I Lord? Or I just don't have the right heart with You?

I am scared it might affect my relationship and my future life with Jeff.

Is it really wise to get married in April?

Or are we just acting in haste because we also feel lust for each other?

Lord, I don't want our relationship to be destroyed because of lust or any other negative emotions. Help us Father God. Help the both of us to become more patient and more loving and understanding with each other.

Thank You for helping me become honest with how I felt. Thank You for the right words to say.

Lord, help us. I don't want my emotions and my heart get the best of me. Thank You Father. Please give me wisdom and a sound heart as I make decisions for my life.

Thank You Father God. I know You have blessed me with such a loving man. Though he can be so stingy sometimes. But we can talk about things and find ways so we can always meet halfway.

Thank You Lord. Amen.