14 A man is tempted to do wrong when he lets himself be led by what his bad thoughts tell him to do. 15 When he does what his bad thoughts tell him to do, he sins. When sin completes its work, it brings death.
James 1:14-15 NLV
Dear Lord,
Lord, forgive me. This is really true. The bad thoughts in my mind have been the reason why I have kept on committing sinful acts and behavior. Forgive me, Father God. Forgive me.
Lord, please cleanse my mind. Lord, help me not to meditate much on sinful acts, on sinful words and behavior. Help me not to equate love to sex. Help me to just find and only find my joy, my real joy from You not from other people nor things. Help me Father. I need Your grace, Your grace abounding.
Lord, help me not to be overcome by my sinful mind. Renew my mind Lord God. Renew my mind Father. Help me Lord to glorify You and to honor You in everything that I do and of course everything that I think. Father, please.
8 Christian brothers, keep your minds thinking about whatever is true, whatever is respected, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever can be loved, and whatever is well thought of. If there is anything good and worth giving thanks for, think about these things. 9 Keep on doing all the things you learned and received and heard from me. Do the things you saw me do. Then the God Who gives peace will be with you. Philippians 4:8-9 NLV
Help me Father to meditate on these things. Things that are true, respected, right, pure, can be loved and well thought of. Those that are good and worth giving thanks for. Help me Lord God to meditate on these things in Jesus' Name always. Whatever pleases You, help me to meditate on them. I know Lord that there are many negative and bad things that are in my mind but Lord You will give me the grace and the power to throw them away, in Jesus' Name.
Father, thank You so much for Your Word. Thank You so much for You care enough for me to guide me and to show me the right direction. Thank You Father God. Amen.
BEE
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Still Anxious
Dear Lord,
Lord, right now I am still feeling anxious about a lot of things in my life. About the people around me, about the life I am going to have a year from now.
Lord forgive me for being unfaithful. I have lots of things in mind like I have this feeling that You will not bless me because I have been a bad daughter, I have been a bad child to my parents. Forgive me Lord. I still cannot forgive myself for what I did.
Then there are those people I call my friends. Lord, I am still struggling with my relationship with them. Lord, I think they have not been good influences in my life anymore. I think I have not been using my own judgment and the wisdom You gave me as regards my dealing with them. Lord, what do I do? I still want to be good to them but I want to slowly separate myself from them for they have not been helping me at all anymore.
I have started to say bad words again, to bad mouth other people behind my back, to say things that a true and real child of You will never say. My behavior has changed a lot.
Also, I think my mother who has always been an angry and bitter woman has influenced me a lot in a negative way. Lord, what do I do? I feel like I am a broken jar, so shattered into pieces.
Then there's the house that we want to buy. Lord, I really want to have our own house together. My fiance and I. Yet, the possibilities around in relation to our salary seem to be so bleak already. Yet, Lord I will still pray that You will give us what we need in Your own time.
Lord, I am also praying for our relationship. May we be in the path of purity beginning today. Forgive us if we had been so impure in our relationship. Forgive us Father God. Forgive us.
Lord, I could never tell what the future will bring. The possibilities. I could never know the things that could happen in the long run. All I know is I should trust You. Should fully trust You and Your provision. Though the odds around me, the concrete things that surround me seem to be so hopeless. Yet, I will still trust in You.
Give us wisdom Lord. Give us the grace Lord and the provision. I will put my trust in You. You will be in control of everything. Thank You Father God. Amen.
BEE
Lord, right now I am still feeling anxious about a lot of things in my life. About the people around me, about the life I am going to have a year from now.
Lord forgive me for being unfaithful. I have lots of things in mind like I have this feeling that You will not bless me because I have been a bad daughter, I have been a bad child to my parents. Forgive me Lord. I still cannot forgive myself for what I did.
Then there are those people I call my friends. Lord, I am still struggling with my relationship with them. Lord, I think they have not been good influences in my life anymore. I think I have not been using my own judgment and the wisdom You gave me as regards my dealing with them. Lord, what do I do? I still want to be good to them but I want to slowly separate myself from them for they have not been helping me at all anymore.
I have started to say bad words again, to bad mouth other people behind my back, to say things that a true and real child of You will never say. My behavior has changed a lot.
Also, I think my mother who has always been an angry and bitter woman has influenced me a lot in a negative way. Lord, what do I do? I feel like I am a broken jar, so shattered into pieces.
Then there's the house that we want to buy. Lord, I really want to have our own house together. My fiance and I. Yet, the possibilities around in relation to our salary seem to be so bleak already. Yet, Lord I will still pray that You will give us what we need in Your own time.
Lord, I am also praying for our relationship. May we be in the path of purity beginning today. Forgive us if we had been so impure in our relationship. Forgive us Father God. Forgive us.
Lord, I could never tell what the future will bring. The possibilities. I could never know the things that could happen in the long run. All I know is I should trust You. Should fully trust You and Your provision. Though the odds around me, the concrete things that surround me seem to be so hopeless. Yet, I will still trust in You.
Give us wisdom Lord. Give us the grace Lord and the provision. I will put my trust in You. You will be in control of everything. Thank You Father God. Amen.
BEE
Separation: Necessary?
Dear Lord,
You know how I feel right now. You know how stressed and sad I am right now.
I feel so alone.
Lord, I am trying to avoid my friends now for they are not being good influences in my life. With them, I have compromised my sexual purity and integrity by just overlooking their green jokes, even laughed with them and worst started the jokes with them. I have also started to bad mouth other people by just being with them.
I am tired. And even I was not spared from being criticized and bad-mouthed behind my back. Lord, are they real friends or what?
I do not want to listen to them anymore. I do not want to share my stories with them anymore. I have learned my lesson the hard way and it is indeed very hard.
Lord, I am also praying for the house. Lord, I am crying out to You, please provide for us, for a house where we can live, where my future husband and I will share our lives together. I am still praying for that Lord. I am begging You in Jesus' name.
Lord, what do I do now? What do I do with those relationships I have already established? Do I just throw them away, set them aside because actually they are not helping me at all?
The people who will use your shortcomings and mistakes against you, who will judge you and will ostracized you just because you don't fit their mold anymore?
I am tired of this Lord. I will still be friendly to them, be good to them but I will slowly separate myself from them. I will get on with my life, move on and just grow into the person that You have always intended me to be.
Thank You Father. Amen.
You know how I feel right now. You know how stressed and sad I am right now.
I feel so alone.
Lord, I am trying to avoid my friends now for they are not being good influences in my life. With them, I have compromised my sexual purity and integrity by just overlooking their green jokes, even laughed with them and worst started the jokes with them. I have also started to bad mouth other people by just being with them.
I am tired. And even I was not spared from being criticized and bad-mouthed behind my back. Lord, are they real friends or what?
I do not want to listen to them anymore. I do not want to share my stories with them anymore. I have learned my lesson the hard way and it is indeed very hard.
Lord, I am also praying for the house. Lord, I am crying out to You, please provide for us, for a house where we can live, where my future husband and I will share our lives together. I am still praying for that Lord. I am begging You in Jesus' name.
Lord, what do I do now? What do I do with those relationships I have already established? Do I just throw them away, set them aside because actually they are not helping me at all?
The people who will use your shortcomings and mistakes against you, who will judge you and will ostracized you just because you don't fit their mold anymore?
I am tired of this Lord. I will still be friendly to them, be good to them but I will slowly separate myself from them. I will get on with my life, move on and just grow into the person that You have always intended me to be.
Thank You Father. Amen.
Monday, November 26, 2012
Real Friends or What?
17 With the Lord’s authority I say this: Live no longer as the Gentiles do, for they are hopelessly confused. 18 Their minds are full of darkness; they wander far from the life God gives because they have closed their minds and hardened their hearts against him. 19 They have no sense of shame. They live for lustful pleasure and eagerly practice every kind of impurity.
Ephesians 4:17-19 NLT
Dear Lord,
I am thinking right now. My friends. Or so-called ones. I don't know. I think the reason why I am like this now, why am I already compromising is because I have been surrounded by people who more or less subtly affect my thinking and behavior.
Lord, sadly I have more unbeliever friends than godly ones. I cannot even establish a good, christian relationship with other women. Help me Lord. Help me, help us Father.
My friends have been influencing my thinking for how many times already. i have learned to compromise my virtues and most especially my promise of purity with my future husband. Even my relationship with him becomes strained each time my friends would be involved.
Help me Father God. Help me to change my attitude, my life and my relationship with them. Is it okay to avoid them from time to time and not to be close to them the way I used to? Lord, even You Father Jesus had Your own circle of friends, Your inner circle that uplifted You as You did the same.
Lord, show me those people whom should I belong to in the first place. The people who can be real blessings to me, who can guide me towards You. Father God, thank You so much.
Thank You for showing me this area. That the people around me have big influence to me in the many areas of my life.
Thank You Father God. Amen.
Ephesians 4:17-19 NLT
Dear Lord,
I am thinking right now. My friends. Or so-called ones. I don't know. I think the reason why I am like this now, why am I already compromising is because I have been surrounded by people who more or less subtly affect my thinking and behavior.
Lord, sadly I have more unbeliever friends than godly ones. I cannot even establish a good, christian relationship with other women. Help me Lord. Help me, help us Father.
My friends have been influencing my thinking for how many times already. i have learned to compromise my virtues and most especially my promise of purity with my future husband. Even my relationship with him becomes strained each time my friends would be involved.
Help me Father God. Help me to change my attitude, my life and my relationship with them. Is it okay to avoid them from time to time and not to be close to them the way I used to? Lord, even You Father Jesus had Your own circle of friends, Your inner circle that uplifted You as You did the same.
Lord, show me those people whom should I belong to in the first place. The people who can be real blessings to me, who can guide me towards You. Father God, thank You so much.
Thank You for showing me this area. That the people around me have big influence to me in the many areas of my life.
Thank You Father God. Amen.
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Unfounded Anger
Dear Lord,
Now I understand why I am angry with my father. It is because of the anger my mother has for him and she just wants us to feel the same way towards him.
Lord, my father cannot love me perfectly but I believe he loves me in the way he knows how. It is just that maybe he has not been given the value and appreciation he longs for us to give him.
Father, my mother has her issues as well. Both of them. Both of them are wounded people who are still yet to be healed by You. But Lord, I thank You for You have been so gracious and kind to me to pick me up again, help me get up and stand. Help me not to hate myself.
Father, my family is really dysfunctional. I want to fully let go of the hate and anger I have for my father and just please help me to have a forgiving and loving heart. A heart that is patient and kind and keeps no records of wrongs.
Jesus, thank You so much. Thank You for picking me up again. Help me to put more of my trust and my love and devotion to You. Thank You for Your word. Thank You.
Indeed, You are the only One who can truly satisfy my heart and give me the love I really do not deserve. But You love me still. Thank You Father God. Amen.
Now I understand why I am angry with my father. It is because of the anger my mother has for him and she just wants us to feel the same way towards him.
Lord, my father cannot love me perfectly but I believe he loves me in the way he knows how. It is just that maybe he has not been given the value and appreciation he longs for us to give him.
Father, my mother has her issues as well. Both of them. Both of them are wounded people who are still yet to be healed by You. But Lord, I thank You for You have been so gracious and kind to me to pick me up again, help me get up and stand. Help me not to hate myself.
Father, my family is really dysfunctional. I want to fully let go of the hate and anger I have for my father and just please help me to have a forgiving and loving heart. A heart that is patient and kind and keeps no records of wrongs.
Jesus, thank You so much. Thank You for picking me up again. Help me to put more of my trust and my love and devotion to You. Thank You for Your word. Thank You.
Indeed, You are the only One who can truly satisfy my heart and give me the love I really do not deserve. But You love me still. Thank You Father God. Amen.
Friday, November 23, 2012
Deep Hurts Unraveled
Dear Lord,
I am asking for Your forgiveness and for Your healing. I have deep-seated anger inside me towards my own father and my mother though I cannot admit it.
I am angry with my father because of his abandonment, his weakness and his absence in my life for many years. I miss those days when I would still be on his shoulders, he would carry me and he would be with me. But of course, he had to leave for many times.
Then my mother. Of course she has her issues about him and she is letting me be mad at him when in fact she has to protect him especially from us, his children. Lord, I feel so wounded, so down right now.
I have become so disrespectful and so unloving towards them, towards my own father. Forgive me. Even the man I am with right now is being victimized by my own attitude and behavior.
I think I am loving him, looking up to him like he is my father, not the man I really want to marry and spend the rest of my life with. I easily get mad at him for he cannot be the father I have been longing to have. But he is a good man. He loves me in the best ways that he can.
Father, help me to come to terms with my feelings. Help me to forgive my father and my mother fully. Help me to trust my fiance and love him for the man that he is. Heal my heart and help me towards the road to forgiveness.
I feel ashamed. I feel guilty about my behavior. I feel ashamed for my actions. Forgive me. Forgive me and heal me from these hurts so I can also love fully and with full trust.
I believe there's nothing that You cannot do or heal. I am praying for healing and for guidance. I am asking for forgiveness. Help me. Help me Lord. Please. Amen.
I am asking for Your forgiveness and for Your healing. I have deep-seated anger inside me towards my own father and my mother though I cannot admit it.
I am angry with my father because of his abandonment, his weakness and his absence in my life for many years. I miss those days when I would still be on his shoulders, he would carry me and he would be with me. But of course, he had to leave for many times.
Then my mother. Of course she has her issues about him and she is letting me be mad at him when in fact she has to protect him especially from us, his children. Lord, I feel so wounded, so down right now.
I have become so disrespectful and so unloving towards them, towards my own father. Forgive me. Even the man I am with right now is being victimized by my own attitude and behavior.
I think I am loving him, looking up to him like he is my father, not the man I really want to marry and spend the rest of my life with. I easily get mad at him for he cannot be the father I have been longing to have. But he is a good man. He loves me in the best ways that he can.
Father, help me to come to terms with my feelings. Help me to forgive my father and my mother fully. Help me to trust my fiance and love him for the man that he is. Heal my heart and help me towards the road to forgiveness.
I feel ashamed. I feel guilty about my behavior. I feel ashamed for my actions. Forgive me. Forgive me and heal me from these hurts so I can also love fully and with full trust.
I believe there's nothing that You cannot do or heal. I am praying for healing and for guidance. I am asking for forgiveness. Help me. Help me Lord. Please. Amen.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Still in Doubt
Dear Lord,
Lord, You know my thoughts right now. You know how doubtful I am specially with how the things are going between the two of us.
I don't know but it feels like there will come a time that I will be the one who will shoulder everything and will provide for the bigger needs that we may have.
I don't know. Something inside me says to not push through with our plans. With all that is happening. Is it just me? Lord, I don't know.
Lord, what do I do? Sometimes, I feel like I am being with an opportunist. He just lets me spend money for him while he does not do the same.
Lord, You're the only One I can open this up with. You're the only One I can confide these things with for You know the people around me. The people around us.
Lord, I don't know. What do I do?
I should have just let him grow first. Prove the things that he told me before. Lord, I know of some people, I know some men who depended to their girlfriends for their financial needs. Lord, help me decided on this thing.
Lord, I don't want to just leave him. I don't want to end this relationship just because these things are happening. Father, I love him but I don't want what is happening. He knows that.
Lord, please kindly convict him. Lord, he does not have salary yet according to him and probably he really needs my help. He is being honest with me as regards his finances. Lord, that's the reason why You still want us to give our relationship more time for You still want us to grow together and develop our character.
Help him Lord to be the man. To be the provider and stand on his ground. Lord, I honestly do not like this set up but since I love him, I am willing to stay. Yet Lord, help him Lord God to stand and become who he is if he is going to establish a family.
I will just let him. I will let him stand, I will help him prove himself. Help me to do those things Father.
Lord, is it the right decision for him to buy a house in Armstrong? Many people are saying it is not good there but it is the place that his salary can afford. Lord, please help him to have wisdom. And I will just be right behind him.
Lay is right. I should give him more time, time to stand on his own and to do things on his own. Without me. He gave me many promises when we he was still courting. Lord, please help him to keep all of those.
Father, please. Give me wisdom on this. Should I still continue being with him or do I just pray again for another man to come into my life? One who will really fit my mold.
Father, please give me wisdom on this. Amen.
Lord, You know my thoughts right now. You know how doubtful I am specially with how the things are going between the two of us.
I don't know but it feels like there will come a time that I will be the one who will shoulder everything and will provide for the bigger needs that we may have.
I don't know. Something inside me says to not push through with our plans. With all that is happening. Is it just me? Lord, I don't know.
Lord, what do I do? Sometimes, I feel like I am being with an opportunist. He just lets me spend money for him while he does not do the same.
Lord, You're the only One I can open this up with. You're the only One I can confide these things with for You know the people around me. The people around us.
Lord, I don't know. What do I do?
I should have just let him grow first. Prove the things that he told me before. Lord, I know of some people, I know some men who depended to their girlfriends for their financial needs. Lord, help me decided on this thing.
Lord, I don't want to just leave him. I don't want to end this relationship just because these things are happening. Father, I love him but I don't want what is happening. He knows that.
Lord, please kindly convict him. Lord, he does not have salary yet according to him and probably he really needs my help. He is being honest with me as regards his finances. Lord, that's the reason why You still want us to give our relationship more time for You still want us to grow together and develop our character.
Help him Lord to be the man. To be the provider and stand on his ground. Lord, I honestly do not like this set up but since I love him, I am willing to stay. Yet Lord, help him Lord God to stand and become who he is if he is going to establish a family.
I will just let him. I will let him stand, I will help him prove himself. Help me to do those things Father.
Lord, is it the right decision for him to buy a house in Armstrong? Many people are saying it is not good there but it is the place that his salary can afford. Lord, please help him to have wisdom. And I will just be right behind him.
Lay is right. I should give him more time, time to stand on his own and to do things on his own. Without me. He gave me many promises when we he was still courting. Lord, please help him to keep all of those.
Father, please. Give me wisdom on this. Should I still continue being with him or do I just pray again for another man to come into my life? One who will really fit my mold.
Father, please give me wisdom on this. Amen.
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Strength to Forgive
Dear Lord,
I am in deep pain right now. It just hurts me so much knowing how my earthly father thinks and feels towards me. I don't know but Lord, I still hate him and I actually don't want to see him ever again.
Yet, what can I do? I live in his house. Sadly, I cannot even own this house for myself. It feels like I am a stranger, an outsider in this family with the way he he has been treating us, with the way he has been treating me.
Lord, I am deeply hurt. I want to retaliate, I want to hurt him deeper but I cannot because I fear You. Lord, help me to forgive. Help me to forgive. Help me to accept without pain the fact that he could never love me the way he should, the way I wanted to be loved and accepted by him. Help me to accept the fact that he could never love me fully. Help me to come to terms with this feeling, with my attitude towards him, with my life with him.
Sadly, I feel that both of my parents do not love me as much. Yet, I am thankful to You for You gave me a man who loves me so much. Who loves me wholeheartedly, who loves me for who I am. I am thankful for he knows exactly how to love me. Lord, thank You for his love yet I am more thankful for Your love.
Your the only One I can run to. You're the only I can fully trust and depend on. Yet, I just put You last in my life most of the time. Help me Father God. Help me to always put You first in everything that I do. Lord, please change my heart. So I can obey You and love You more than anything else, more than anyone else.
Lord, help me. Help me to forgive and to just love and respect my parents regardless if they have been good or not. Really, wounded people hurt others too.
Help me also to actually never fully mind the offense of my father towards me. Help me also to fully trust men especially the man I am going to marry. Help me, Father God.
Lord, I am praying for my attitude to change. Lord, help me to come to terms with the negative issues in my life. Help me, Father God. I am begging You, please help me.
Help me Father to understand Your word. Help me to keep them in my heart. Forgive me Lord if I had negative thoughts regarding my fiance. Help me Father God to love him more the way You want me to love, respect and care for him.
Thank You Father God. Amen.
I am in deep pain right now. It just hurts me so much knowing how my earthly father thinks and feels towards me. I don't know but Lord, I still hate him and I actually don't want to see him ever again.
Yet, what can I do? I live in his house. Sadly, I cannot even own this house for myself. It feels like I am a stranger, an outsider in this family with the way he he has been treating us, with the way he has been treating me.
Lord, I am deeply hurt. I want to retaliate, I want to hurt him deeper but I cannot because I fear You. Lord, help me to forgive. Help me to forgive. Help me to accept without pain the fact that he could never love me the way he should, the way I wanted to be loved and accepted by him. Help me to accept the fact that he could never love me fully. Help me to come to terms with this feeling, with my attitude towards him, with my life with him.
Sadly, I feel that both of my parents do not love me as much. Yet, I am thankful to You for You gave me a man who loves me so much. Who loves me wholeheartedly, who loves me for who I am. I am thankful for he knows exactly how to love me. Lord, thank You for his love yet I am more thankful for Your love.
Your the only One I can run to. You're the only I can fully trust and depend on. Yet, I just put You last in my life most of the time. Help me Father God. Help me to always put You first in everything that I do. Lord, please change my heart. So I can obey You and love You more than anything else, more than anyone else.
Lord, help me. Help me to forgive and to just love and respect my parents regardless if they have been good or not. Really, wounded people hurt others too.
Help me also to actually never fully mind the offense of my father towards me. Help me also to fully trust men especially the man I am going to marry. Help me, Father God.
Lord, I am praying for my attitude to change. Lord, help me to come to terms with the negative issues in my life. Help me, Father God. I am begging You, please help me.
Help me Father to understand Your word. Help me to keep them in my heart. Forgive me Lord if I had negative thoughts regarding my fiance. Help me Father God to love him more the way You want me to love, respect and care for him.
Thank You Father God. Amen.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Praying for Patience and Endurance
Dear Lord,
Father, I am praying for more patience and endurance especially when it comes to my earthly father. Sometimes it is really hard and difficult to love him especially when I know that he is doing something wrong to my mother. Father, in Jesus' name, I cannot do this all alone, please help me. I need Your help, Your guidance and Your strength for me to overcome this growing hate inside me.
Lord, as regards my mother, help her Lord to overcome her hate and unforgiveness. Help her Lord to forgive those who wronged her, those who just gave her miseries. Lord, You know what she's going through. Just please help her, in Jesus' name.
Lord, I surrender my earthly father to You. I could never do anything about him, about what he's doing. Lord, just please change my response to him and love him more for right now, I really don't feel like loving him at all. I am starting to feel this hate, real and intense for him for what he is doing.
Lord, just please help me. Help my heart. Cleanse it Lord with all the impurities it has.
Lord, I am also praying for our relationship. May it last and may we get married also. Lord, I am praying that our relationship will really head towards marriage.
Lord, I still have some qualms about him like his attitude with money and giving and about returning things. I am praying Father that may we work these things that bother us together. Lord, our relationship is supposed to be a blessing to others, actually a ministry where we can show that inspite of everything we can still grow together and love each other.
Lord, I overate again yesterday. I am sorry. Lord, I think it is really more of a spiritual and emotional problem than a physical one. Lord, what can I do? Help me. Lord, You are the only One who can really help me with all my concerns and my problems.
Lord, please. Help me. Help me with my struggles, help me become victorious and help me to become stronger. Thank You so much for everything. For all the love and for not being weary and for having such an unfathomable understanding and full acceptance of me.
Thank You, Jesus. Amen.
Father, I am praying for more patience and endurance especially when it comes to my earthly father. Sometimes it is really hard and difficult to love him especially when I know that he is doing something wrong to my mother. Father, in Jesus' name, I cannot do this all alone, please help me. I need Your help, Your guidance and Your strength for me to overcome this growing hate inside me.
Lord, as regards my mother, help her Lord to overcome her hate and unforgiveness. Help her Lord to forgive those who wronged her, those who just gave her miseries. Lord, You know what she's going through. Just please help her, in Jesus' name.
Lord, I surrender my earthly father to You. I could never do anything about him, about what he's doing. Lord, just please change my response to him and love him more for right now, I really don't feel like loving him at all. I am starting to feel this hate, real and intense for him for what he is doing.
Lord, just please help me. Help my heart. Cleanse it Lord with all the impurities it has.
Lord, I am also praying for our relationship. May it last and may we get married also. Lord, I am praying that our relationship will really head towards marriage.
Lord, I still have some qualms about him like his attitude with money and giving and about returning things. I am praying Father that may we work these things that bother us together. Lord, our relationship is supposed to be a blessing to others, actually a ministry where we can show that inspite of everything we can still grow together and love each other.
Lord, I overate again yesterday. I am sorry. Lord, I think it is really more of a spiritual and emotional problem than a physical one. Lord, what can I do? Help me. Lord, You are the only One who can really help me with all my concerns and my problems.
Lord, please. Help me. Help me with my struggles, help me become victorious and help me to become stronger. Thank You so much for everything. For all the love and for not being weary and for having such an unfathomable understanding and full acceptance of me.
Thank You, Jesus. Amen.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Be Careful
Dear Lord,
I felt lust again last night and tried to gratify myself. Because of what I heard and read yesterday about that gruesome news. Father, forgive me for I gave in to temptation again and this was even after I already prayed to You. Forgive me Lord. Forgive me.
I will not listen nor read things about that issue anymore. I will just do something more worthwhile and productive instead of wasting my time away watching television and reading garbage articles from the net. For aside from having my lust activated, I am also starting to become so utterly scared and paranoid. It is not healthy anymore.
Lord, help me to understand Your word and apply them to my life. Thank You so much Father God. Thank You for I am still alive and this is a brand new day for me. Thank You for caring for me and loving me inspite of my attitude. Thank You Lord God. Amen.
I felt lust again last night and tried to gratify myself. Because of what I heard and read yesterday about that gruesome news. Father, forgive me for I gave in to temptation again and this was even after I already prayed to You. Forgive me Lord. Forgive me.
I will not listen nor read things about that issue anymore. I will just do something more worthwhile and productive instead of wasting my time away watching television and reading garbage articles from the net. For aside from having my lust activated, I am also starting to become so utterly scared and paranoid. It is not healthy anymore.
Lord, help me to understand Your word and apply them to my life. Thank You so much Father God. Thank You for I am still alive and this is a brand new day for me. Thank You for caring for me and loving me inspite of my attitude. Thank You Lord God. Amen.
Thinking About Life
I thinking about life.
How these days people have not been valuing one another. People just kill just like that. They kill for no reason at all, they snuff out life from somebody for simple, selfish, and utterly stupid reasons. People nowadays have become more like savages or maybe even more.
I forgot, I need to say my prayers to God.
Dear Lord,
With all the news and stories on TV right now, I just could not help but feel scared and paranoid. I am always thinking that something bad might happen when in fact there will be none as You promised. You will love us and protect us in everything that we do.
Father, help me to put more of my trust in You and may this faith extend to those people I love and cherish the most. The people who are so important in my life.
Please take away the fear inside my heart.
Father, please forgive my sins. Please forgive my offenses and help me overcome trials and temptations.
Thank You Father. Amen.
How these days people have not been valuing one another. People just kill just like that. They kill for no reason at all, they snuff out life from somebody for simple, selfish, and utterly stupid reasons. People nowadays have become more like savages or maybe even more.
I forgot, I need to say my prayers to God.
Dear Lord,
With all the news and stories on TV right now, I just could not help but feel scared and paranoid. I am always thinking that something bad might happen when in fact there will be none as You promised. You will love us and protect us in everything that we do.
Father, help me to put more of my trust in You and may this faith extend to those people I love and cherish the most. The people who are so important in my life.
Please take away the fear inside my heart.
Father, please forgive my sins. Please forgive my offenses and help me overcome trials and temptations.
Thank You Father. Amen.
Monday, November 12, 2012
Doubting Him
Dear Lord,
Lord, thank You again for this lovely and brand new morning for me. Thank You so much Father.
Father, You know what I am going through right now. You know the doubts, the fears I have inside regarding my fiance. Father, I want to completely trust him yet deep inside I still have reservations for him. Anyway, maybe that's the reason why You are telling me to give more time for our relationship for You still want us to grow more in You and trust in You more completely.
Father, I love him. And I want to spend my days with him for he is a good person and he loves You more than he loves me. He approaches Your throne each time we are having some difficulties.
Father, please help me to just love him and help me to trust. To trust You first and foremost and to trust him if he is to become my husband soon. Father, I know it was Your will for us to be together because of the circumstances and the way we met. Father, help me. Help him. Help us.
Lord, I am lifting up to You the doubts I have inside. I lay them down at Your throne. Lord, help me to just simply love and accept him for who he is and what he has. Help me Father to simply love him and really love him.
I don't really understand why he loves me that much. His love for me is too good to be true that's why I doubt him. Yet, maybe I have an issue within me regarding my own self-acceptance. I think there is this unconscious belief in me that no one could really love me so true like the one that he is giving me right now. I think I have been conditioned to think that I should always give something, I should always replace the love and affection given me. That people have a hidden agenda that's why they are showing me that they love me. Which of course Father is not true.
Help me Lord to trust people. To trust men. To trust him and most especially to trust You. May this issue of mine be uprooted and be replaced by something beautiful, something that would enrich and nourish my heart and my life.
Father, thank You for him. Thank You for the man that he is. Thank You for loving me and for loving him. Help us Father God. Help him also with his job. And also help me to forgive my own father and those men who hurt and abused me in the past.
Lord, thank You for You are telling me these things. That it is not him but me. Thank You so much Father God. I am praying Lord God for our relationship. Please bless us and help us to become pure and simply love each other in everything that we do. Thank You Lord. Amen.
Lord, thank You again for this lovely and brand new morning for me. Thank You so much Father.
Father, You know what I am going through right now. You know the doubts, the fears I have inside regarding my fiance. Father, I want to completely trust him yet deep inside I still have reservations for him. Anyway, maybe that's the reason why You are telling me to give more time for our relationship for You still want us to grow more in You and trust in You more completely.
Father, I love him. And I want to spend my days with him for he is a good person and he loves You more than he loves me. He approaches Your throne each time we are having some difficulties.
Father, please help me to just love him and help me to trust. To trust You first and foremost and to trust him if he is to become my husband soon. Father, I know it was Your will for us to be together because of the circumstances and the way we met. Father, help me. Help him. Help us.
Lord, I am lifting up to You the doubts I have inside. I lay them down at Your throne. Lord, help me to just simply love and accept him for who he is and what he has. Help me Father to simply love him and really love him.
I don't really understand why he loves me that much. His love for me is too good to be true that's why I doubt him. Yet, maybe I have an issue within me regarding my own self-acceptance. I think there is this unconscious belief in me that no one could really love me so true like the one that he is giving me right now. I think I have been conditioned to think that I should always give something, I should always replace the love and affection given me. That people have a hidden agenda that's why they are showing me that they love me. Which of course Father is not true.
Help me Lord to trust people. To trust men. To trust him and most especially to trust You. May this issue of mine be uprooted and be replaced by something beautiful, something that would enrich and nourish my heart and my life.
Father, thank You for him. Thank You for the man that he is. Thank You for loving me and for loving him. Help us Father God. Help him also with his job. And also help me to forgive my own father and those men who hurt and abused me in the past.
Lord, thank You for You are telling me these things. That it is not him but me. Thank You so much Father God. I am praying Lord God for our relationship. Please bless us and help us to become pure and simply love each other in everything that we do. Thank You Lord. Amen.
Friday, November 9, 2012
Disappointed
Dear Lord,
Thank You again for this lovely morning. Thank You for this time, thank You that I am still alive and my loved ones are all alive and well. Thank You.
I am so disappointed with myself yesterday. I really freaked out, I was so mean. It feels like everything was my fault. I really feel bad about myself especially with the way I reacted in front of the kids. It was really so sad.
I feel like I failed a lot. I really feel bad.
I also feel insignificant sometimes especially in the workplace. I feel sometimes that my superiors do not trust me enough. I really feel sad about things, Father.
That's why I overate again. I did things that seemed to be pleasurable at the moment but would cost me this low feeling, this sadness and brokenness I am having right now. Father, forgive me and please lift my spirits now.
Lord, I am thankful for the support and love my fiance is giving me. As well as my family especially my mother. Thank You so much. Also most of my friends. Thank You Lord.
Thank You also that there are still people who believe in me and who trust in my abilities. Thank You.
Lord, help me overcome this feeling. Maybe because I still have unforgiveness in my heart towards my earthly father. Help me overcome this feeling.
Lord, I have been asking for patience but there I was, exploding like a bomb yesterday. It was because of fear and anger combined. Both negative emotions so I had negative reaction. Lord, thank You for You still gave grace and saved my pupils from total injury. Thank You and I am learning my lesson.
Lord, thank You so much for everything. Forgive me Father. Amen.
Thank You again for this lovely morning. Thank You for this time, thank You that I am still alive and my loved ones are all alive and well. Thank You.
I am so disappointed with myself yesterday. I really freaked out, I was so mean. It feels like everything was my fault. I really feel bad about myself especially with the way I reacted in front of the kids. It was really so sad.
I feel like I failed a lot. I really feel bad.
I also feel insignificant sometimes especially in the workplace. I feel sometimes that my superiors do not trust me enough. I really feel sad about things, Father.
That's why I overate again. I did things that seemed to be pleasurable at the moment but would cost me this low feeling, this sadness and brokenness I am having right now. Father, forgive me and please lift my spirits now.
Lord, I am thankful for the support and love my fiance is giving me. As well as my family especially my mother. Thank You so much. Also most of my friends. Thank You Lord.
Thank You also that there are still people who believe in me and who trust in my abilities. Thank You.
Lord, help me overcome this feeling. Maybe because I still have unforgiveness in my heart towards my earthly father. Help me overcome this feeling.
Lord, I have been asking for patience but there I was, exploding like a bomb yesterday. It was because of fear and anger combined. Both negative emotions so I had negative reaction. Lord, thank You for You still gave grace and saved my pupils from total injury. Thank You and I am learning my lesson.
Lord, thank You so much for everything. Forgive me Father. Amen.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Doubting Still
Dear Lord,
Father, thank You so much for this lovely morning. Thank You for I still have a new life and I am happy for I am still alive. Thank You so much.
Father God, You know that somehow I still have doubts as regards Jeff. I don't know but is it just because of what the people around me are telling or is it because the Holy Spirit is talking to my soul telling me something?
Lord, sometimes I am thinking that he might just be using me, that the reason why he is so sure about marrying me is that he wants to get the good things from me. But no, Father he is Your child, Your son and I believe he is not what others are trying to tell me to be.
Father, help me. Help me discern everything. Getting married is a lifetime commitment, something that one should really think about first. Help me to decide and help me to just trust in You and depend on You completely.
Thank You so much Father God. Amen.
BEE.
Father, thank You so much for this lovely morning. Thank You for I still have a new life and I am happy for I am still alive. Thank You so much.
Father God, You know that somehow I still have doubts as regards Jeff. I don't know but is it just because of what the people around me are telling or is it because the Holy Spirit is talking to my soul telling me something?
Lord, sometimes I am thinking that he might just be using me, that the reason why he is so sure about marrying me is that he wants to get the good things from me. But no, Father he is Your child, Your son and I believe he is not what others are trying to tell me to be.
Father, help me. Help me discern everything. Getting married is a lifetime commitment, something that one should really think about first. Help me to decide and help me to just trust in You and depend on You completely.
Thank You so much Father God. Amen.
BEE.
Doubting Still
Dear Lord,
Father, we are getting married the coming year. Everything happened fast. Do I still barely know him or am I really seeing what I am supposed to see?
Lord, I believe he is a good man. A wonderful person. He understands me in many ways. Father, I love him but sometimes I still have doubts that just might be using me.
Lord, show me. The real him. But then I see him most of the time. We get to talk a lot, we get to understand each other more and more everyday. Lord, please help me.
Give me wisdom. Give me understand and please give me discernment. Lord, please help me and please forgive me for my wrongdoings and mistakes. Amen.
BEE
Father, we are getting married the coming year. Everything happened fast. Do I still barely know him or am I really seeing what I am supposed to see?
Lord, I believe he is a good man. A wonderful person. He understands me in many ways. Father, I love him but sometimes I still have doubts that just might be using me.
Lord, show me. The real him. But then I see him most of the time. We get to talk a lot, we get to understand each other more and more everyday. Lord, please help me.
Give me wisdom. Give me understand and please give me discernment. Lord, please help me and please forgive me for my wrongdoings and mistakes. Amen.
BEE
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Impulsive Decision
Dear Lord,
Lord, I am thinking right now. Honestly, I am feeling angry again with my father and a bit with my mother. Why can't they just work things out between the two of them?
Lord, my father. He's not been telling the truth and You know that. As much as I want to love and respect him, the more that he is becoming unbearable. Why can't he just give his hundred percent to his family? Why does he have other people to think about and love to the point of keeping something from his wife and children?
I don't know. Lord, I want to have a family of my own . My own home. Yet, right now I am still thinking am I just being impulsive or am I making the right decision?
Father, You know that I want to have church wedding. Deep in my heart yet given our circumstances it is going to be quite uneasy.
You know my fiance, he does not have much money. He is not rich but he is really trying to do something. Lord, all we want is to have our own house, our own family and to live our lives simply and just glorifying You.
I don't want to disrespect my own father. Forgive me and yes, help me to love him more for I want to have Your blessings. I am angry deep inside. I want to hurt him for hurting me but it is not what You want. Forgive me Father for even thinking this way.
Lord, thank You so much. Please help me. Help me with my problem and my dilemma. Help me with what I am going through. Money should not be a very big issue in our lives. Help me Father please.
Lord, I am thinking right now. Honestly, I am feeling angry again with my father and a bit with my mother. Why can't they just work things out between the two of them?
Lord, my father. He's not been telling the truth and You know that. As much as I want to love and respect him, the more that he is becoming unbearable. Why can't he just give his hundred percent to his family? Why does he have other people to think about and love to the point of keeping something from his wife and children?
I don't know. Lord, I want to have a family of my own . My own home. Yet, right now I am still thinking am I just being impulsive or am I making the right decision?
Father, You know that I want to have church wedding. Deep in my heart yet given our circumstances it is going to be quite uneasy.
You know my fiance, he does not have much money. He is not rich but he is really trying to do something. Lord, all we want is to have our own house, our own family and to live our lives simply and just glorifying You.
I don't want to disrespect my own father. Forgive me and yes, help me to love him more for I want to have Your blessings. I am angry deep inside. I want to hurt him for hurting me but it is not what You want. Forgive me Father for even thinking this way.
Lord, thank You so much. Please help me. Help me with my problem and my dilemma. Help me with what I am going through. Money should not be a very big issue in our lives. Help me Father please.
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Contentment
Dear Lord,
Thank You again for this brand new day. Forgive me for my sins. Yes Lord, forgive me and please change my heart for the better.
Father, thank You for Your kindness and grace. Thank You that You love me and that You value me so much.
Father, help me. Help me change my heart and mind. Help me Lord God to be content with him and with everything that he can give me. Lord, he is like that. He does not shower me gifts, he does not please other people, he is just being himself.
He is not what I have in mind, the ideal boyfriend. But he is a good person. Forgive me if I disrespect him and put him down. Lord, I hate myself for being so childish and for being so cruel to him. Forgive me for being unloving to him. Forgive me Father God.
Lord, I love him. Help me Father to accept him completely for who he is warts and all. Help me to become more loving, to become more patient and to learn to be content and to never compare him with other men.
Lord, this is what relationship is all about. Acceptance. As I accept, I value, I care and I love. Lord, this is how my relationship with him should be.
Lord, may our relationship be blessed by You and be guided by You. Thank You for we are not bounded by lust anymore. Thank You for we are being busy most of the time and thank You for our souls and our minds meet most of the time. I am so in love with his character, with his personality more than the material things, more than anything.
Father, thank You for the valuable lesson I am learning from You through him each day. Thank You for when he came into my life, my perspectives have been changing.
Thank You also for the trials for they are helping me become a better and more loving person to him.
Lord, just please help me. Help me to be content, to accept him and embrace him completely and to just love him with all my heart after You. Thank You Lord.
Help me to submit to him. Help me to just follow his leadership. Thank You for the man that You gave me. Thanks a lot.
May I learn from Your word today and may I apply them in my life each day. Amen.
Thank You again for this brand new day. Forgive me for my sins. Yes Lord, forgive me and please change my heart for the better.
Father, thank You for Your kindness and grace. Thank You that You love me and that You value me so much.
Father, help me. Help me change my heart and mind. Help me Lord God to be content with him and with everything that he can give me. Lord, he is like that. He does not shower me gifts, he does not please other people, he is just being himself.
He is not what I have in mind, the ideal boyfriend. But he is a good person. Forgive me if I disrespect him and put him down. Lord, I hate myself for being so childish and for being so cruel to him. Forgive me for being unloving to him. Forgive me Father God.
Lord, I love him. Help me Father to accept him completely for who he is warts and all. Help me to become more loving, to become more patient and to learn to be content and to never compare him with other men.
Lord, this is what relationship is all about. Acceptance. As I accept, I value, I care and I love. Lord, this is how my relationship with him should be.
Lord, may our relationship be blessed by You and be guided by You. Thank You for we are not bounded by lust anymore. Thank You for we are being busy most of the time and thank You for our souls and our minds meet most of the time. I am so in love with his character, with his personality more than the material things, more than anything.
Father, thank You for the valuable lesson I am learning from You through him each day. Thank You for when he came into my life, my perspectives have been changing.
Thank You also for the trials for they are helping me become a better and more loving person to him.
Lord, just please help me. Help me to be content, to accept him and embrace him completely and to just love him with all my heart after You. Thank You Lord.
Help me to submit to him. Help me to just follow his leadership. Thank You for the man that You gave me. Thanks a lot.
May I learn from Your word today and may I apply them in my life each day. Amen.
Monday, November 5, 2012
My Heart's Doubt
Dear Lord,
Thank You so much again for this brand new morning. Thank You for You are there and You are not leaving our side and thank You for we are learning something from You everyday.
Father, You know my dilemma right now. You know that I still doubt the choice that I made about my boyfriend now. Forgive me for sometimes, I am not so proud of him. That I am ashamed to even let some of my friends know about him. Father, forgive me. You gave him to me though he's not perfect and the perfect cut-out of my dreams. I don't know, I was just drawn towards him because of his kindness and gentleness to me. His humility. His love for me.
Father, there will always be someone better than him. I know that. And I know that there will always be someone better than me. Father, help me to come to terms with this and help me to shun away all the other voices that just confuse me and just listen to that still, small voice that comes from You.
Do I go ahead with this relationship? Yes.
Are You the center of his life? Yes.
Lord, may he also always put You first in his life. May his words become blessings always and may he become a blessing to others. I am also praying that may he reach his full potential.
Father, help us. Help us grow in You and obey You in everything that we do. Help us to follow what You have in mind for us. Lord, help us in our lives together and may our security come from You alone and not from the things that You give us and bless us with.
Father, help me to just simply listen and follow Your advice. Help me seek You and just be near to You in every way. Thank You Father for everything. May I understand Your Word this morning. Amen.
Thank You so much again for this brand new morning. Thank You for You are there and You are not leaving our side and thank You for we are learning something from You everyday.
Father, You know my dilemma right now. You know that I still doubt the choice that I made about my boyfriend now. Forgive me for sometimes, I am not so proud of him. That I am ashamed to even let some of my friends know about him. Father, forgive me. You gave him to me though he's not perfect and the perfect cut-out of my dreams. I don't know, I was just drawn towards him because of his kindness and gentleness to me. His humility. His love for me.
Father, there will always be someone better than him. I know that. And I know that there will always be someone better than me. Father, help me to come to terms with this and help me to shun away all the other voices that just confuse me and just listen to that still, small voice that comes from You.
Do I go ahead with this relationship? Yes.
Are You the center of his life? Yes.
Lord, may he also always put You first in his life. May his words become blessings always and may he become a blessing to others. I am also praying that may he reach his full potential.
Father, help us. Help us grow in You and obey You in everything that we do. Help us to follow what You have in mind for us. Lord, help us in our lives together and may our security come from You alone and not from the things that You give us and bless us with.
Father, help me to just simply listen and follow Your advice. Help me seek You and just be near to You in every way. Thank You Father for everything. May I understand Your Word this morning. Amen.
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Jealousy or What?
Dear Lord,
Father, forgive me but sometimes I think bad about his relatives especially the people he is now living with. Sometimes I have this feeling that they abuse his kindness and they look down on him.
Father, it hurts me a lot. Forgive me but that's how I think and feel. I pray that this is wrong. I pray that I am just assuming and I only have a very wild imagination.
Forgive me Father God. They are people too, Your children too and I honestly do not want to offend You just because I have this so and so feelings.
Help me to discern what is good and loving and kind. Thank You Father God. Amen.
BEE
Father, forgive me but sometimes I think bad about his relatives especially the people he is now living with. Sometimes I have this feeling that they abuse his kindness and they look down on him.
Father, it hurts me a lot. Forgive me but that's how I think and feel. I pray that this is wrong. I pray that I am just assuming and I only have a very wild imagination.
Forgive me Father God. They are people too, Your children too and I honestly do not want to offend You just because I have this so and so feelings.
Help me to discern what is good and loving and kind. Thank You Father God. Amen.
BEE
Asking for Help
Dear Lord,
Lord, thank You so much for this morning. Thank You that I still have life, that I still have hope and peace inside me.
Lord, I ma asking for Your guidance. My fiance and I are planning to get married as early as March. Is it wise or what do You think about it?
Time. Give our relationship more time. Lord, because You want us to grow together, You want to develop our characters still so we can face the challenges ahead. Sometimes I am scared but then You remind me that it is You, You are the center of the relationship and that You brought us together. Just help us Father and please provide for us with all our needs.
Father, help me not to ask too much from him. Help me not to look from him material things that he just cannot afford. Lord, help me to be content with whatever he can give me and not ask for too much. Lord, I know You still develop some things in him. Help us to just follow You and obey You in everything that we do.
Father, may we also have our own little babies. May we build a family of five where we have three kids. I want to have three kids but because of financial constraints, we can't. Lord, please help us. Whatever it is that You deem wise, please help us do it.
Lord, last night I was surprise to find myself not having some "kilig" feelings anymore. What do you think? Is my love really coming full circle meaning it has gone beyond that stage? But sometimes I miss it. But I am not going to trade what I have already.
Thank You for giving me a loving and very kind man. Thank You for him though sometimes he is not really perfect. Maybe because I am looking for my "father" in him but of course I cannot find for in the first place, he is not my father. Help me Lord to come to terms with my issues with my own earthly father so that I can fully love the would-be-father or my children.
Father, please help me. Please help me. Cut the areas that don't grow, weed out the bad ones in me. Thank You so much Lord God. Amen.
Lord, thank You so much for this morning. Thank You that I still have life, that I still have hope and peace inside me.
Lord, I ma asking for Your guidance. My fiance and I are planning to get married as early as March. Is it wise or what do You think about it?
Time. Give our relationship more time. Lord, because You want us to grow together, You want to develop our characters still so we can face the challenges ahead. Sometimes I am scared but then You remind me that it is You, You are the center of the relationship and that You brought us together. Just help us Father and please provide for us with all our needs.
Father, help me not to ask too much from him. Help me not to look from him material things that he just cannot afford. Lord, help me to be content with whatever he can give me and not ask for too much. Lord, I know You still develop some things in him. Help us to just follow You and obey You in everything that we do.
Father, may we also have our own little babies. May we build a family of five where we have three kids. I want to have three kids but because of financial constraints, we can't. Lord, please help us. Whatever it is that You deem wise, please help us do it.
Lord, last night I was surprise to find myself not having some "kilig" feelings anymore. What do you think? Is my love really coming full circle meaning it has gone beyond that stage? But sometimes I miss it. But I am not going to trade what I have already.
Thank You for giving me a loving and very kind man. Thank You for him though sometimes he is not really perfect. Maybe because I am looking for my "father" in him but of course I cannot find for in the first place, he is not my father. Help me Lord to come to terms with my issues with my own earthly father so that I can fully love the would-be-father or my children.
Father, please help me. Please help me. Cut the areas that don't grow, weed out the bad ones in me. Thank You so much Lord God. Amen.
Friday, November 2, 2012
Thankful
Dear Lord,
Thank You so much for the time yesterday. Thank You for I learned a lot of things and still counting. Thank You for teaching me a lot of things.
Father, may I still have that kind of time with You. Please give me again the willpower and the strength to just depend on You and not just on material things like food.
Thank You Lord and may I understand Your Word this morning. May I learn something new from You again Father. Thank You so much. Amen.
Thank You so much for the time yesterday. Thank You for I learned a lot of things and still counting. Thank You for teaching me a lot of things.
Father, may I still have that kind of time with You. Please give me again the willpower and the strength to just depend on You and not just on material things like food.
Thank You Lord and may I understand Your Word this morning. May I learn something new from You again Father. Thank You so much. Amen.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Deep Seated Issues
Dear Lord,
Lord, thank You for this lovely morning again. Thank You for I still have life and the sun is shining so brightly outside. I am thankful for I have all that I need everyday and even more. Thank You.
I am sorry if at times I forget those blessings. If I tend to focus on what I do not have instead on what I do have. I am sorry if I still desire for more and more until I forget the word contentment. I am sorry Father.
I am thankful for this warm, breezy yet cool room. I am thankful for the wind outside, I am thankful for the food on the table, I am thankful for the people I have around.
Lord, I am sorry. The deep seated issues I have within me are actually surfacing now. Especially the issues I have with my father. You know, now I understand why I always do not feel I measure up, why do I feel rejected inside. Because that is how I feel from my earthly father. All my life, I have tried to measure up, I have tried for someone to love me and only me to no avail. My mom's favorite is my brother, my father's favorite is my sister. Father, this is a very sad realization yet I have to come to terms with this for it will affect my relationship with the man I am going to marry. I might demand from him though subconsciously that he just focus on me, that I am the only one for his attention.
Lord this is wrong. I must understand that though my earthly father did not give me the right kind of value any girl should have, still I must believe that You are there, You are on my side and You value me more than anyone else in this world. Thank You for You are the only One who can do that and You are the only One I can truly depend on.
Forgive me if I had been such a pain in the neck to my fiance. Forgive me for acting so childish, for being so jealous most of the time. Forgive me Father God and I am still yet to learn to trust You and to just depend upon You completely.
I forgot to say thank You for this semester break. I was able to clean my room, fix my things and tidy things up. Thank You for helping me and for bringing back senses into my brain. Thank You.
Father God, I am praying for a good house next year. May my future husband and I find a lovely place, a good place where we can build our own family. Father, I know that it is Your will for us to be together. May our wedding be just quiet, simple yet beautiful and may we overcome temptation especially the lust of the flesh each time we are together. Thank You Father God.
Lord, I actually have a lot of things to tell You. How grateful I am, how thankful I am to You. Thank You for just picking me up each time I would fall to the ground because of my own foolishness and selfishness. Forgive me Lord and thank You so much.
May this morning, may I understand everything that You have to say and to tell me. Thank You Father God. Amen.
Lord, thank You for this lovely morning again. Thank You for I still have life and the sun is shining so brightly outside. I am thankful for I have all that I need everyday and even more. Thank You.
I am sorry if at times I forget those blessings. If I tend to focus on what I do not have instead on what I do have. I am sorry if I still desire for more and more until I forget the word contentment. I am sorry Father.
I am thankful for this warm, breezy yet cool room. I am thankful for the wind outside, I am thankful for the food on the table, I am thankful for the people I have around.
Lord, I am sorry. The deep seated issues I have within me are actually surfacing now. Especially the issues I have with my father. You know, now I understand why I always do not feel I measure up, why do I feel rejected inside. Because that is how I feel from my earthly father. All my life, I have tried to measure up, I have tried for someone to love me and only me to no avail. My mom's favorite is my brother, my father's favorite is my sister. Father, this is a very sad realization yet I have to come to terms with this for it will affect my relationship with the man I am going to marry. I might demand from him though subconsciously that he just focus on me, that I am the only one for his attention.
Lord this is wrong. I must understand that though my earthly father did not give me the right kind of value any girl should have, still I must believe that You are there, You are on my side and You value me more than anyone else in this world. Thank You for You are the only One who can do that and You are the only One I can truly depend on.
Forgive me if I had been such a pain in the neck to my fiance. Forgive me for acting so childish, for being so jealous most of the time. Forgive me Father God and I am still yet to learn to trust You and to just depend upon You completely.
I forgot to say thank You for this semester break. I was able to clean my room, fix my things and tidy things up. Thank You for helping me and for bringing back senses into my brain. Thank You.
Father God, I am praying for a good house next year. May my future husband and I find a lovely place, a good place where we can build our own family. Father, I know that it is Your will for us to be together. May our wedding be just quiet, simple yet beautiful and may we overcome temptation especially the lust of the flesh each time we are together. Thank You Father God.
Lord, I actually have a lot of things to tell You. How grateful I am, how thankful I am to You. Thank You for just picking me up each time I would fall to the ground because of my own foolishness and selfishness. Forgive me Lord and thank You so much.
May this morning, may I understand everything that You have to say and to tell me. Thank You Father God. Amen.
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