September 1, 2012

“Come, let us worship and bow down. Let us kneel before the LORD our maker, for he is our God. We are the people he watches over, the flock under his care. If only you would listen to his voice today!” Psalm 95:6-7 NLT

Lord, thank You so much for this day. You know my thoughts were wandering like crazy again a while ago. Forgive me. Thank You for watching over us, for watching over me.

Father, there's this preacher I want to listen to. Joseph Prince. I am blessed even if it was only a short time that I listened to him. Indeed, it is not our works, not our obedience but by the grace You have freely and generously given to us through Jesus Christ our Lord.

Thank You very much. Let not my gaze be far from You again. Help me choose the best thing in my life which is You and everything will follow.

Thank You so much. Thank You for everything. Amen.

A New Heart

Dear Lord,

Kindly give me a new heart. A heart that is more faithful and inclined to You. A heart that will love You above all else. A heart that belongs to You.

My son, give me your heart, and let your eyes observe and delight in my ways. Proverbs 23:26 AMP

Lord, may I also have Your heart. A heart that only thinks for others, a heart that can humbly and sincerely love. Father, thank You for Your blessings. Thank You for teaching me about life and about love. Thank You so much for the learning experiences.

Father, thank You. All things indeed work together for good for those who love You. Lord, this relationship that You gave me may not be something that will deteriorate me but will bless me in every way.

I thank You for his heart. For his patient and loving heart. I see You in him. How You have been patient with me and how understanding You are with me. Father, I know You love me more than he could so You gave him to me.

May I always delight in Your ways. And may we just focus, may I just focus on You and You alone. Nothing else will matter. Only You and of course, him.

Thank You for changing my heart. Thank You for washing it. I feel like I am a completely different person.

May I always obey Your commands and put You first in my life in every endeavor that I will undertake. 

Amen.

In Perfect Peace

Dear Lord,

 You know what happened. You know how my parents don't like him already all because of my words. Yet, Father You know him. You know the man You gave in all aspects of his personality. Lord, what happened has taught me to become more responsible not just with my words but with my actions as well.

Lord, You know I have not been behaving appropriately especially when we're together. Forgive me for disobeying You and for leading him on to something we cannot take back anymore. Lord, forgive me.

Father, I am begging You, please change the hearts of my parents. And yes Lord, bless him. They fear that in the future I might be the one who will provide for him but bu Your grace and Your mercy, You will help him to provide for us and for our soon-to-be family. Father, take away the money issues then he is the one.

They are also bothered. Bothered if he is indeed inclined to his family. Father, You know him well. And I trust You so I can also trust Him.

Forgive me. Forgive me for my mistakes. Forgive me for everything that happened. Thank You for the life lessons. Amen.

BEE.

You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on You! Isaiah 26:3 NLT

Father, I claim this. I claim this for us. I claim this for our future in Jesus' name. Lord I pray for a house near this place and may we find a house just right for us. Near this place in Jesus' name. I will commit to You this endeavor. I will not just depend on my own understanding but according to Your will. Lead us to the right direction, Father. Thank You so much Father God. Amen.

Praying for the Future

Dear Lord,

Maybe, I already need to stand on my own and decide for myself. To just depend on You and what You have to say.
Father, is it right if we would get married in August next year? What do you think?
Because Lord, I thought my parents were going to help me. But because of the unreasonable attitude of my mother, things turned out differently. Anyway, I think that is not their duty to give us our own house in the first place.
I am just so sad. I let my own unreasonable, my being judgmental and vanity even my selfishness rule over me last Saturday and yesterday. I am just sad that the person who matters to me a lot got terribly hurt because of my negative attitude. I am sorry Lord. I am sorry for I haven't been giving value to the gift that You have given me.
He loves me. He loves me a lot. I know. I can feel it. I can feel how he cherishes and values me. His actions speak louder than words.
Father, help me. Help us. Give us wisdom. Give me wisdom and knowledge as we go through this next phase of our lives. I have realized if money were not an issue between us, I would marry him today or tomorrow.
Father, please provide for us and help us. Father, please bless the works of his hands. This time I will only just trust You and obey You in everything that I do, we do. Lord, now it is not just me. But there's another one also. The love of my life.
Father, please help us. Please help us. I still want to finish my studies. Please help us with our finances together. Help us, dear Lord.
Lord, You know the kind of man I had in mind but You gave me someone like him. Help me Lord to find Your will in the midst of this situation. Help  me to just simply follow You and trust Your lead.
Lord, please help me. Help me to learn from Your Word. Amen.

Bounded by Lust

Lord, I am sorry. You know fully well the reason why I said yes to him in the first place. I was bounded by lust and until now I am.

Father, that man really loves me. But I must admit that I do not love him that much. Somehow I pity him. Father, do I break up with him or will I be sorry for the rest of my life?

Yet, I do not want to lose him. I do not want to be far from him. He is really a good man, very kind and loving to me. Lord, he deserves someone better. He deserves someone who can love him back in the same kind of love he gives.

Am I that person? Father, I am sorry. I have been committing sin towards You and him. I have been having all the dirtiest and most evil intentions for him while he has the purest of motives for me. He loves me and he has been so patient with me.

Father, I am ambitious. I want to go greater heights. You know it. You know that I have always wanted to marry someone with a higher stature in life, someone who is excellent and someone who can propel me to move forward. With him, I am contented to be just like this because deep inside me, I know I might just leave him behind.

Father, am I to break free from him? Marriage is a lifetime commitment and there's no turning back. My relationship with him is not my ideal one. Honestly, I am just forced to continue moving ahead because there's no turning back. Lord, I want to go higher, I want to achieve something bigger and I want to live fuller.

Lord, help me. He is having some financial problems, I know that. Being with me is quite expensive. Father, we are having a hard time being together because we don't have much resources. But we need to connect. I need to connect with him as he does with me.

Father, what is this? Forgive me. Let not lust nor unholy desires and passion consume me. Help me to just love and accept this man as he is. Help me to just let him enter my life in ways that will not make him feel less of a person.

Father, please correct my mind and my heart. Please. Please. Help me. I need Your help now. Thank You. Amen.