Doubting Him

Dear Lord,

Lord, thank You again for this lovely and brand new morning for me. Thank You so much Father.

Father, You  know what I am going through right now. You know the doubts, the fears I have inside regarding my fiance. Father, I want to completely trust him yet deep inside I still have reservations for him. Anyway, maybe that's the reason why You are telling me to give more time for our relationship for You still want us to grow more in You and trust in You more completely.

Father, I love him. And I want to spend my days with him for he is a good person and he loves You more than he loves me. He approaches Your throne each time we are having some difficulties.

Father, please help me to just love him and help me to trust. To trust You first and foremost and to trust him if he is to become my husband soon. Father, I know it was Your will for us to be together because of the circumstances and the way we met. Father, help me. Help him. Help us.

Lord, I am lifting up to You the doubts I have inside. I lay them down at Your throne. Lord, help me to just simply love and accept him for who he is and what he has. Help me Father to simply love him and really love him.

I don't really understand why he loves me that much. His love for me is too good to be true that's why I doubt him. Yet, maybe I have an issue within me regarding my own self-acceptance. I think there is this unconscious belief in me that no one could really love me so true like the one that he is giving me right now. I think I have been conditioned to think that I should always give something, I should always replace the love and affection given me. That people have a hidden agenda that's why they are showing me that they love me. Which of course Father is not true.

Help me Lord to trust people. To trust men. To trust him and most especially to trust You. May this issue of mine be uprooted and be replaced by something beautiful, something that would enrich and nourish my heart and my life.

Father, thank You for him. Thank You for the man that he is. Thank You for loving me and for loving him. Help us Father God. Help him also with his job. And also help me to forgive my own father and those men who hurt and abused me in the past.

Lord, thank You for You are telling me these things. That it is not him but me. Thank You so much Father God. I am praying Lord God for our relationship. Please bless us and help us to become pure and simply love each other in everything that we do. Thank You Lord. Amen.