Separation: Necessary?

Dear Lord,

You know how I feel right now. You know how stressed and sad I am right now.

I feel so alone.

Lord, I am trying to avoid my friends now for they are not being good influences in my life. With them, I have compromised my sexual purity and integrity by just overlooking their green jokes, even laughed with them and worst started the jokes with them. I have also started to bad mouth other people by just being with them.

I am tired. And even I was not spared from being criticized and bad-mouthed behind my back. Lord, are they real friends or what?

I do not want to listen to them anymore. I do not want to share my stories with them anymore. I have learned my lesson the hard way and it is indeed very hard.

Lord, I am also praying for the house. Lord, I am crying out to You, please provide for us, for a house where we can live, where my future husband and I will share our lives together. I am still praying for that Lord. I am begging You in Jesus' name.

Lord, what do I do now? What do I do with those relationships I have already established? Do I just throw them away, set them aside because actually they are not helping me at all?

The people who will use your shortcomings and mistakes against you, who will judge you and will ostracized you just because you don't fit their mold anymore?

I am tired of this Lord. I will still be friendly to them, be good to them but I will slowly separate myself from them. I will get on with my life, move on and just grow into the person that You have always intended me to be.

Thank You Father. Amen.