Disappointed

Dear Lord,

Thank You again for this lovely morning. Thank You for this time, thank You that I am still alive and my loved ones are all alive and well. Thank You.

I am so disappointed with myself yesterday. I really freaked out, I was so mean. It feels like everything was my fault. I really feel bad about myself especially with the way I reacted in front of the kids. It was really so sad.

I feel like I failed a lot. I really feel bad.

I also feel insignificant sometimes especially in the workplace. I feel sometimes that my superiors do not trust me enough. I really feel sad about things, Father.

That's why I overate again. I did things that seemed to be pleasurable at the moment but would cost me this low feeling, this sadness and brokenness I am having right now. Father, forgive me and please lift my spirits now.

Lord, I am thankful for the support and love my fiance is giving me. As well as my family especially my mother. Thank You so much. Also most of my friends. Thank You Lord.

Thank You also that there are still people who believe in me and who trust in my abilities. Thank You.

Lord, help me overcome this feeling. Maybe because I still have unforgiveness in my heart towards my earthly father. Help me overcome this feeling.

Lord, I have been asking for patience but there I was, exploding like a bomb yesterday. It was because of fear and anger combined. Both negative emotions so I had negative reaction. Lord, thank You for You still gave grace and saved my pupils from total injury. Thank You and I am learning my lesson.

Lord, thank You so much for everything. Forgive me Father. Amen.