Still in Doubt

Dear Lord,

Lord, You know my thoughts right now. You know how doubtful I am specially with how the things are going between the two of us.

I don't know but it feels like there will come a time that I will be the one who will shoulder everything and will provide for the bigger needs that we may have.

I don't know. Something inside me says to not push through with our plans. With all that is happening. Is it just me? Lord, I don't know.

Lord, what do I do? Sometimes, I feel like I am being with an opportunist. He just lets me spend money for him while he does not do the same.

Lord, You're the only One I can open this up with. You're the only One I can confide these things with for You know the people around me. The people around us.

Lord, I don't know. What do I do?

I should have just let him grow first. Prove the things that he told me before. Lord, I know of some people, I know some men who depended to their girlfriends for their financial needs. Lord, help me decided on this thing.

Lord, I don't want to just leave him. I don't want to end this relationship just because these things are happening. Father, I love him but I don't want what is happening. He knows that.

Lord, please kindly convict him. Lord, he does not have salary yet according to him and probably he really needs my help. He is being honest with me as regards his finances. Lord, that's the reason why You still want us to give our relationship more time for You still want us to grow together and develop our character.

Help him Lord to be the man. To be the provider and stand on his ground. Lord, I honestly do not like this set up but since I love him, I am willing to stay. Yet Lord, help him Lord God to stand and become who he is if he is going to establish a family.

I will just let him. I will let him stand, I will help him prove himself. Help me to do those things Father.

Lord, is it the right decision for him to buy a house in Armstrong? Many people are saying it is not good there but it is the place that his salary can afford. Lord, please help him to have wisdom. And I will just be right behind him.

Lay is right. I should give him more time, time to stand on his own and to do things on his own. Without me. He gave me many promises when we he was still courting. Lord, please help him to keep all of those.

Father, please. Give me wisdom on this. Should I still continue being with him or do I just pray again for another man to come into my life? One who will really fit my mold.

Father, please give me wisdom on this. Amen.