Insecure

Dear Lord,

Lord, I cannot sleep until now. I am still waiting for his reply. Lord, I think he does not like me. Lord, I wish I had not met him anymore. Because I like him again. Another one. Lord, please spare my heart.

Lord, I am crying out to You. Help me. I cannot describe this feeling. I am filled with sadness. What is supposed to be a happy night ended in misery all because of my thoughts. Lord, what do You have to say?

Maybe, Ianne my friend was right when she told me I was a negative person. Yes, in all other areas of my life, I have been such a positive girl but when it comes to my lovelife and my dealings with men, I am becoming the complete opposite. Lord, I am small, I am not fair-skinned like my sister, I am not that beautiful.

Yet, Lord You reminded me that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Lord, that all I need to cultivate is the kindness and love that I have in my heart. That I have a hope and a future. I may not be so physically appealing but then Lord, I will just use my heart, mind and spirit to captivate whoever that person is that You will give me.

Lord, I will just work on my soul. I will just have a beautiful soul, a lovely and faithful heart. These Lord I will cultivate in me. Thank You so much for reminding me.

Lord, regardless if he would reply or not, I will go to sleep now an thank You so much for this wonderful night and memory.