November 15, 2011

Dear Lord,

Thank You so much for this brand new life again. For lending me back my life again. Lord, thank You that I am still alive, that I am still okay.

Lord, something bothers me still right now. No, I will let go of that person for he is not the one that You plan for me. Lord, You know what stuff I am made of. You know the needs that I have in me. You know Lord the kind of person You have made me to be. Since I met him, I was given some hope but then no, I am not really comfortable with those thoughts. Lord, I am praying that You kindly change the way I think and feel right now. I pray Lord that I will regain the peace and tranquility that I had prior to the day that we met. It is quite funny for it has been only barely a week and if I had not seen him in FB, I would really not remember his face. Lord, please.

Lord, let me become a blessing in my workplace again. Let me love those who are seemingly unlovable, those who are not easy to get along with. Help me Lord to bless those who need me, my time and my energy. Lord, may I also do them with all the sincerity and kindness You could give me.

May I also Lord become more of a responsible daughter, a loving child and big sister to my parents and younger siblings. Lord, I had been so preoccupied with my work that I have no real time with my family anymore. I will spend more time with them later.

Lord, I am also praying for my friends, for Ynnah, Ianne and Sette. Lord, forgive me for because of my preoccupation with myself, I have already forgotten to pray for them specially their salvation. Lord, please help me Lord God if You are going to use me to lead them back to You, then so be it.

I am also praying for my own spiritual growth. Lord, You know that my church right now has not been so supportive of my growth. Lord, is it right for me to change church again or to just stay? Lord, please help me. I also really need people to uplift me and to walk with me in my faith.

Lord, I am also still praying for that special in my life whoever he will be. Lord, kindly show him to me and yes Lord, may we find each other in Your own time. Lord, You know my situation right now. It is not that I am not mingling with others nor having any other life aside from my work and my home. It is just that no opportunity has been given me to meet with others who also share the same belief system that I have. Lord, I must admit that I have this certain guy in my mind who is very much younger than me but who shows such godly qualities that draw me to him. Lord, do I pray for him? Lord, whatever Your will is then it shall be done in You own time.

Lord, is it okay if he would become my inspiration? Someone who would propel me to become a better person and a better woman? Is it okay? Is it wise? I don't think so. For what if You already planned to give him to another girl? Then I would be hurt again. No, it's like this. I will just be the right person. I have some ideas in mind about the right person for me so for me to attract him, I will become the right person first. In all aspect. Mind, body and soul.

Lord, thank You for this time that I am having discomfort for in times like this, I am drawn to be become closer to You.

Amen.