Thinking

Dear Lord,

Honestly, I don't know. He has been so good to me, spending time with me and most of the time paying for the food we eat and the fare when we go home but he is not buying me anything. Maybe because he thinks I am too expensive and yes, I told him that he should not buy things for me anyway. But I am still longing to receive flowers and other things.

Maybe because I am used to be given by my own dad and my own mom. This has been our practice as a family. Maybe this is what I am used to. To be given beautiful material things.

Father, how do I deal with it? How will he know that side, that aspect of my personality? Yes, I want time more but sometimes it just feels good when someone gives you something even if it is just a very small thing.

Maybe Lord that is not really his love language. Yesterday, I was able to prove it because he just nonchalantly received the book and the Bible I gave him. Lord, please help me. Yet, I know he still does not have that capacity to give my whims and my wants.

But he provides for me when we go out. He pays for the food and fare. He is willing to buy the house. Maybe, I am just too immature to think about these things. He gives me his time and effort. He is so generous with them. I appreciate him for those.

Lord, just bless him. And help me to be content and not to look for things that he cannot do and give. For now. In time I know he will surely and truly learn how he can love me fully and deal with me. Thank You Father God. Amen.