September 10, 2012 Monday

Both the idols and their owners are bowed down. The gods cannot protect the people, and the people cannot protect the gods.  They go off into captivity together. Isaiah 46:2 NLT

Dear Lord,

Lord, it does not have to be stones nor images that one can turn into an idol. It can also be a habit, a person or an object that occupies much of our time, effort, thoughts and even money. 
Father, forgive me. Forgive me for these past few months, I had been so out of my senses. I gave in to the lust of the flesh, I gave in to evil desires that almost costed me people and things that matter to me a lot.
Forgive me if I have not been putting You first in my life. Forgive me if I have been following my own evil and carnal desires. 
Forgive me Father and please turn my life around.
Please turn my life around and help me to become more useful to You and to others.
Father, is it really Your will for us to get married next year? Is it really according to Your plans or do we still need to wait for more years? 
Father, I cannot just allow time, resources and other things to dictate us. May You be our guide, may You be our counselor as we go through our life together. 
May I become a blessing to him and to the people around him. But sometimes Lord, I am having a feeling that he just thinks of me as an asset, like a necessity. But still it is wrong to think badly of a person and somehow I am already seeing the person that he is. Father, I will never know right now what You can do to his life and my life. All I need to do is to trust You and to just use the wisdom that You have freely given me.
Thank You Father that albeit my mistakes, albeit my sinfulness You have been so gracious to me, You have been so loving to me. Help me to become more obedient to You. Help me to become more faithful and loving to You.
Father, I am having fears right now. Fears if I could trust him enough and not just using me to meet his ends and needs. Sometimes, his words scare me fearing that probably he only thinks of me as his necessity that is why he cannot just let me go. Father, please reveal to me the heart of that person before I settle down and spend my life and everything with him.
Lord, forgive me if I feel this way. Forgive me. And help me to become more trusting and just faithful and really obedient to You.
Help me Lord. And may I always put You first in my life in everything that I do.
Amen.