Dear Lord,
I guess I have been looking for love all from the wrong places. I have been trying to be perfect, to be good and to be almost too good to be true so that I would be loved. I would be accepted. I would be the right person for that person. But what I have been doing has been depleting me emotionally, mentally, physically, financially and most of all spiritually.
All because I have always wanted to be loved. But I have been wrong. I have neglected You, I have taken You for granted, I have abandoned You again and worst, I have disobeyed You in so many ways. I am sorry. I am really.
I just need time to be alone. To be just with myself and to just be still. I must admit that part of what is happening to me right now is the fact that all the others have their own special someone William and the others have found their loves while here I am still waiting in vain to be noticed and to be loved by someone. It is as if You have really forgotten that aspect of my life already. It is as if nothing will ever happen to me in that area of my life. I am so sad Lord. Really. Most people around me are getting hitched forming a family of their own while here I am, still waiting, still longing.I feel so pathetic I want to scream.
What do I do now, Father? What must I do? I don't know what to do. I have tried everything but nothing happens. What do I do?
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