November 1, 2011

Dear Lord,

Good morning again. Thank You for this life again. For lending this back to me. Lord, I am sorry I think I did not use my time so wisely yesterday. I just watched and watched those movies from Hallmark. Lord, they were good movies and made me wish that one day You would also give me a very good husband. Lord, I am still praying for that wonderful person.

Lord, my prayer for today has something to do with it. Lord, I know it is my fault but I could not help but check on William's FB page. Lord, I know he is not the right person for me but sometimes I still have this a bit sensation of pain each time I would remember him. I don't know. Maybe I am just romanticizing a love that I lost. Lord, You know before how I felt about him, how he was just the person I could ever like. How I wanted him to be a part of my life. Yet things did not work out the way I wanted them to. I ended up feeling insecure and had a low self-esteem because of my experiences with him. Lord, I thank You because You helped me redeem back myself again.

Lord, when it comes to him I just feel insecure. Maybe because of my status and his. But I think there's nothing wrong with my education, with my socio-economic status and other things. These are just the world's standards. And probably his. You wouldn't want me to be married with a guy with a probable thinking like that. (^^,)

Lord, I pray that I can fully move on now. That there will be no bitterness whatsoever when I think of him. That there will be not even the slightest hint of pain each time he passes my mind. All I want to remember are the good memories. There were also those lovely times. I thank God for those moments that You let me have with him even if we never became us.

Father, I know everything happens indeed for a reason and there is always a time for everything. You know when to give and You know when to take. My business is just to trust You and just obey You. That's all. Lord, I depend on Your Word and I trust that You will give me hope and a future. Father, thank You so much.

Lord, I am still compelled to pray for my brother, Jego. Lord, I appeal to You to please help him as he looks for a good job that is just suitable for him and his personality. Lord, being a teacher is not that easy. It takes a strong spirit and a patient heart. Lord, You know his nature. You know his limitations. I just lift him up to You. Be gracious to him, Father. I lift him up to You that he may find what You have in store for him. But first, it is important that he establish a very good relationship with You.

Lord, You know better than I. I just trust in You. Kindly remove any trace of doubt or question inside my head. Bad things happen indeed to other people specially Christians but I pray that those bad things do not cause me to become unfaithful but rather be more strong in my faith. Thank You Father. Thank You for this lovely day. Amen.